Where to Begin...

The last month has been a complete roller coaster full of happy moments, stress, tears, laughter and confusion. For those who don't know we had our house on the market for a very long stressful 9 months. We had made the decision to move back to our ".home" (Arizona) and put our house on the market. Well we all know this economy is a hard one. I was SO tired of stressing about having the house clean "in case" someone came to look at it and then without fail if I would let the house go a little bit someone would call and want to come look at it in like 20 minutes. Well, finally the beginning of July we got our 1 and only offer. It was a full price offer and we were STOKED (it better be full price after how low we went in the listing price, LOL). We started looking for a home in Az. We thought with the market the way it is this should be easy. Oh no, not the case. If the house wasn't a short sale it was bank owned and those are hard to come by because they get snagged easily and you have to close in 30 days and we weren't closing on ours in NM for 60 days, so not possible. Then the short sales are a joke. You offer on them and don't know anything for 1-3 months. Time was sneaking away and the stress was too much I could take. I was going crazy trying to find a house and KNOW what our plan was going to be. (Those that know me I am such a planner) We finally found a house that was perfect, had just what we wanted (mostly a pool), beautifully landscaped (perfect for trav) and we were even more excited to see that it was one of the very few being sold be a real person and we wouldn't have to deal with the bank. We made the offer and got it accepted the same night. Finally, things were going right. We continued to have problems on the home front. We ended up replacing half of the ceiling in Ally's room after a big rain storm and it just seemed like problem after problem. We went to our reunion this last weekend unsure about the whole situation (the buyers were wanting to back out and we were trying evertything we could to keep them in). We listened to our voicemail after we got back into town to learn that they did back out. It is sooooo frustrating becasue we have been in the contract with them for a month and then they back out. What it all came down to was the man really liked the house and the woman really wanted another one and she got her way. I am mad and upset and hurt and frustrated that they held us up for this long and waisted our precious time of having the house listed. Now we are back to square one and I really don't know if I can deal with all of this much longer. Having my house ready to show at any given moment, the kids being gone at school and me being bored out of my mind knowing that I could be working part time and playing this waiting game anymore. Everyone keeps telling me everything happens for a reason and it will all work out and I keep trying to convince myself of that but so far I am not convinced. Then to top it all off I go to teach my class last night and I have 1, yes ONE, person show up. So lame :). That is my venting for the day and I appologize but right now I am bugged and angry.